longing

have you ever missed someone so much until you have absolutely no words to describe the feeling that you are feeling?

it's like that person is apart of you but then suddenly, pop, that person is gone. you know that he is reachable by phone or skype or emails or any other magical ways, but you know that it is not the same. you can't feel his breath when he talks, you can't accidentally brushed your skin against his when walking, you can't catch his powdery and cigarette smell when he's sitting right next to you, you can't look directly at his eyes and see yourself reflecting from his eyes, you can't land your hand right where it suppose to be landing whilst you are talking via phone, skype or anything else. you know that whatever type of communications that was said to close the gap between you two and bring the two of you together are bullshits.

all of these technologies are only trying to make distance to be bearable. just that; bearable.

i guess that's why they call it missing because a part of you, someone who had consumed the space in your heart, is actually missing, taking that space with him  too. away. can't be found within eyesight.

i miss my guitar. so much. i could cry. brad.

j

ps: and you too. at least we have skype (: