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"i miss you." she said in front of him. as a way of begging him to come back home with her. but he just stood there, stoned face and weary eyes.

"here's the thing, my love. why would you even miss me. i am not even worthy a minute, scratch that, i am not worthy a second of your time. i am not meant to be missed. i am meant to be forgotten. don't waste your feeling on me my love. find a person who's worthy of your everything." he answered with a flat and defeated voice. though he looked like he's feeling nothing, the girl knew that he was breaking silently inside. pieces by pieces crumbling and shattering all over. oh, the girl would do anything, gave her life up just to pick up those broken pieces of him but he already built a wall, separating him from the world.

"why would you say that. come on-" her voice stuck between her low sob, "come home with me. i'll watch all the Star Wars series with you. pinky swear."

the guy stood still, not even the roar of the wind moved him. the girl slowly reached for his hand, took it and put it on her face, "fuck all the rest darling. fuck them. they know nothing about you." she kissed his palm and said, "darling, i know you. come home with me."

"i'm going right back where i belong." he pulled the girl slowly by her face, closing the distance between them thus making the air around them heavier. his eyes stared right through hers, forcing her to see all the painful glory that had slowly tortured him, the hatred, the sadness, the loneliness, the love he had for her.

the girl felt every ounce of pain he felt, right to the core of her bones, carving tattoos on them. "i'll take care of you. come home. i love you."

he snickered, "who am i to be loved, i was made to be loathed, oh, i love you, but how i wish i could love myself too." he kissed her forehead, "don't worry, i am going back. just-" he swallowed his pain and his love just to say, "just, don't miss me."

slowly, he let go of her face, her hand, his body, his soul and his life as he spread his arms wide like an eagle and let himself go from the ledge of the 45th floor he had been standing on.

"fuck you world! fuck you god! fuck!!!!" the girl heard the guy's screamed whilst he was falling and then nothing at all.

"don't you realize, i am dead too now?" and she collapsed on the floor and slowly, she became let her soul fly away.

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