Hamba

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no salam sejahtera

no salam satu malaysia.

assalamualaikum.

"kenapa guna perkataan Hamba?" a person once asked me. he claimed to be an atheist and i could not force him not to.

"isn't the word Hamba is kind of  like a strong word to use? its like as God is forcing us to worship him. i mean, who the hell wants to be forced?" he then crossed his leg, trying to reason with me on why he is what he claimed he is.

"we tried to run away from this penghambaan thing ever since it started and God is entrapping us with his power, wedging us into worshiping Him." he breathed out, calmly. "i guess, that was the very reason i am what i am. i do not want to be owned. i do not want to be forced. i do not want to be a slave." 

i nodded and smiled. i said that i see the point of what he was trying to say. i told him that i do not agree with him but i still respect for what he stands for. i smiled and i brought this thought back home for me to think about.

just fyi, i am not hear to preach, i am here to tell about what i think and to spread love. not hepatitis, or aids. you wouldn't like that would you? 

Hamba. Slave.

he is right. why would we want to be a slave? why? kenapa kita nak diperhambakan? 

let me tell you why from my perspective.

religion is not a jail, not a rim that is encircling us, imprisoning us. religion is not something used by God to dictate us. religion is the Light, Love, Protection and Guidance.

let me tell you the first thing that i thought about as the guy asked that question to me. "why are you making this such a big deal? a word is just a word. its how you perceive it. if you look at it from a negative angle, then negative it will be. God asked us to seek for knowledge, and seek you should. not give up on it."

the thing is, from how is see it,  i do not consider God as a ruler, or what some may call a dictator, i do not consider myself as a slave, aku bukan hamba, but i am a follower and He is my light.

to live in the darkness is a hell of a world. to be afraid, to be judged, to be tortured, to be turned against of your ownself, to be engulfed by your very soul. it was not an ideal climate or surrounding or ethos to live in. who would want to? that was why i tried to find the Light. to not only guide me but to save me. from whoever or whatever i was turning into. hence, i was the seeker. i was never the slave. i was never enslaved. God was never a ruler, He is the guidance.

secondly, i look at God as if He is my Lover not my owner. as you know, to love is to be loved. hence if you want to be loved by God, you have to first, love Him. and if we love a person for example, wouldn't we want to show to the world how much we love our partner by kissing him, hugging him, telling him that we love him, buying him stuff, be loyal to him and i don't know, to turn to him when you want to be protected, loved and you know, simply just to listen and give a hug.

how is that so different from loving God? you love Him, you tell Him. if you can do that to a human being, why not God? same difference.

remember, in any relationship, to love is to be loved. and to be loved by God is to be loved by all.

so i hope you see now that God was never just a bigger power that wants to control every single thing that we do. Because He is so big, he wants to protect those who are smaller which are us. God is our Light and Lover. we were never His slaves, we are His followers and lovers.

i used the word God and Religion the whole way because i am not dedicating this to Muslims alone, this is for those who think that they are enslaved by God.

thus i am ending this with; i was never enslaved, i am guided, i am protected and i am loved.